cryptic ♥

loneliness.

2010-04-25T19:46:00.000-07:00

My emotions are like waves that were bottled up then suddenly whatever it was holding it, broke apart then all those water come flooding in, drowning me from everything. I never realized until the end that I've already drown and died from all the promises, rejection and loneliness, life has given me.

2010-03-10T19:38:00.000-08:00

they asked me to smile so i smiled,
they asked me to be happy so i pretended to be.
but i really want to cry.

two hours

2010-03-06T17:45:00.001-08:00

two hours away from Yunho.
i really wanna see him.
chubby bear! mel is coming to see you!

my jaejoong.

2010-01-26T20:32:00.000-08:00

happy birthday, my love.

even though, you don't have any idea what you're doing to me, i still want to say thank you. thank you for always being there unlike my parents, thank you for always wiping all the tears from my face unlike my friends. thank you for just being there reminding me that i have to be strong.

the best thing you have given to me as an idol.. is not your stardom.. is not your voice.. is not your talent.. but that adorable smile of yours. it gives me encouragement, it gives me hope that maybe someday i can smile like that too.

holy land~

2010-01-11T07:42:00.000-08:00

is canada
canada is
CANADA

i'm exactly 21 hours away from vancouver, canada.
where jaejoong and hyun joong (one of the best men alive) are.

Pictures from diana922

And I thought I'm the only one who noticed...

2009-12-21T20:37:00.000-08:00

It's hard,
it's really hard...

We never knew that we would end up like this.

I miss the smiles,
the laughs,
the stories,
the things that we should have kept from each other but we said it anyway.

What happened?

Well...

who could have thought it would end this way?

---

How much I wish that what I just wrote was just a poem.. but it isn't.
I feel like crap this past few days and I'm just floating like a ghost.
I'm so disappointed with what I lost and what I had lost myself into.
I lost friends that I really thought would stay forever.

---

I don't say names because I feel it's not necessary.
You know who you are and if you don't then god, from the start what we call friendship is just bullshit.
If I could rewind I would, If I could change everything I would.
but I can't
and that is sad.

---

My life ends.

The tears we shed,
the pain we felt.
The path we took,
The people we lost.

The smiles are gone,
and I have none.
This is what is left,
will my life end?

the ☆ of my life.

2009-12-15T23:17:00.000-08:00

happy xiahday! the ☆ of my life, xiah junsu.

crap.

2009-12-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

i feel like crap.
i never knew music could create so much drama.

i need to stay away from it.
and thank god of kim bum and kim hyun joong for brightening up my day.

tired

2009-11-20T07:34:00.000-08:00

tired of all the shit coming.

can it just stop..
please stop?

---

i've been so exhausted these past few days
and im thankful that it's thanksgiving break.

my eyes hurt and my terrible migraines came back and it's not really helping the stress im feeling about my Pre-Calculus class.

college and SAT's pressure are getting to me and I hope that I won't break down and start crying like a damn baby.

i'm ranting because im extremely tired and just now my fingers just said it's tired.

i have to go and rant later~

the dream and my new sarang, pig-rabbit

2009-11-09T17:18:00.000-08:00

and i thought, i will never ask for anything...

but here i am, dreaming a dream...

or could i possibly do this?

USC; University of Southern California.
The University, I want to go to. The majors and minors I want to take are all in that University >_<

Majors and minor, I WANT:

International Business, Business Administration, Entrepreneurship, East Asian Studies and East Asian Languages and cultures.

and before, I end this...give me pig-rabbit and I'll love you!

life sucks.

2009-10-26T17:18:00.000-07:00

my blog is having some technical difficulties and i'm pissed.

there's no such things as past.

2009-10-25T12:36:00.000-07:00

there's no such things as past.
you either learn something good or something bad.
you either get over them or you don't.

i can't and you can't do anything about that.
what you did to me in the past shaped into something i am now.

and i wont change myself AGAIN just because of you, that past.

exhausted.

2009-10-21T22:05:00.000-07:00

staple my finger.
staple my hands.
staple my arm.
staple my heart.

im exhausted and feels only pain,
when can i wake up and start relaxing again?

cassiopeia of my heart.

2009-10-14T20:59:00.000-07:00

Guys, it doesnt matter WHERE TVXQ goes
but WHO follows & support them.
They need us more than anything right now.
Show you're a real Cassie.

to cherish or to perish

2009-10-13T17:09:00.000-07:00

the regrets we cherished.
the love we perished.
life is moronic,
but we have to live that.

sarang uljima~

2009-10-08T16:15:00.000-07:00

I close my eyes for a moment, I still love you so. I should give up, but I can’t let you go.
You taught me how to love. Now, how can I forget you?

- Kim Jaejoong

Open your eyes and never close them, I will always love you. I won't give up, because I don't have the heart to let go. You taught me to love. I will never forget you.

- mel

~~~

Kimi Dake Omotteiru Yo

the truth of life

2009-10-06T18:46:00.000-07:00

regret.

oh the things that I said,
the things that you said,
the things that we both had said,
now the things we BOTH regret.

- mel

I miss you.

2009-09-19T11:47:00.000-07:00

Three words I believe that is as strong as saying I love you.

Three words that I can't get out of my mind because I can't understand.

Three words that continue to bring tears into my eyes.

How can these three words hurt more than the forbidden I love you.

What is more pathetic is, I don't even know WHO is that I'm missing.

Who are you? Why am I missing you? Will I ever meet you?

Will it always be a Sayonara? Can't it be Forever?

been so long.

2009-09-13T01:38:00.000-07:00

With all my heart (yeah) with all my soul (that's right, ahh)
With all my mind (we both know) with all my strength (together as one right)
With all my heart (let's go, go) with all my soul (there's five of us)
With all my strength (we're the one) yeah...(yeah, let's check this out one more time)

---

can't even update because i keep forgetting to and my schedule is so hectic.
sorry my own dear blog.

to whoever passes this un-updated blog.

please visit dbsknights.blogspot.com, affxtion.com, ygladies.com, diadem5.com and sjsubs.com
i sub for them.

im so addicted with subbing and im still iffy with the whole SCHOOL IS BACK thing.
i seriously want more breaks ><
however, knoff is cool, i am really liking that class.
i hope i survive spanish and i cant wait to make logos and whatnot in compdesign.

bio so far is really interesting and i think im gonna get crap for not taking the books seriously for english >< help me not get distracted in pre-cal ^^

well, now that's my lil update. i'll be back soon

and DUH, always keep the faith, my fellow Cassiopeians.

Youngwoong Jaejoong, I love you, do you know?

I seek solace

2009-09-03T20:06:00.000-07:00

I seek solace.
I want solace.
I need solace.

Have you ever felt so suffocated that you want to get away?
So fucking suffocated you just have to be alone?
So fucking suffocated to give a fuck?

I feel like drowning.
Drowning of my own sweat.
Drowning of my own tears.
Drowning of my own blood.

When can I ever get alone? When can I ever feel free? When can I ever feel happy?

When can I find you?

Probably. FUCKING. never.

my bikeu

2009-08-14T13:08:00.001-07:00

oh my bikeu...really? LOL

Let's take our minds off of seperating and just drool

2009-08-01T14:07:00.000-07:00

Credits: Gayness@Soompi

16th :)

2009-07-18T11:11:00.000-07:00

happy birthday dear boy :)
taemy !
be always happy ad healthy.
don't starve yourself and be careful of those bullies.

thanks for always bringing happiness to me ^^
i want to see you soon !

oh my beautiful boy~~~

2009-07-10T01:45:00.001-07:00

oh my boojae~
this is what you get from hanging out with hyun joong in the wee hours of the morning
tsk tsk

credits: as tagged

THSK (post tokyo dome effect) #1

2009-07-06T16:23:00.000-07:00

congrats my loves~~

boo.

2009-07-03T02:01:00.000-07:00

HIATUS.

hearts mel

so cute~

2009-06-25T01:24:00.001-07:00

my sweet little dorks ^^

and you ask why im addicted to them? tsk tsk ^^

spam it with all love and cheese :)

2009-06-20T00:08:00.000-07:00

Peace, yo :)

LOL

You know you want me :)

LOL, scary min and pouty Jae

I want you and your drink!

Credits: DBSKnights + As tagged

It's okay...

2009-06-16T17:12:00.000-07:00

My tears started to well up as I realize how pitiful I was,
I tried to keep it away from them, I tried to keep it by biting my lip.
I was derived of everything I used to own.

I asked myself, why am I alone? Why do I feel vengeful?
Then you came singing straight to my heart, like saying it's okay.

Is it really? Would it be really okay?

I was not convinced but then you smiled and I started believing again.

I am happy. I should be happy.

(*listen to Nell's It's Okay)

mind over matter.

2009-06-13T17:58:00.000-07:00

stupefied at how ridiculous everything is for me right now.

you ask me why i don't go out? you ask why i don't have a social life? it's all because of you dumbcrack.

how am i suppose to go out without money? how can i have a social life when you don't give me money to spend time with my friends.

you're fucking ridiculous you know.

102 = 1 + 0 + 2 = 3 my world.

2009-06-12T19:44:00.000-07:00

let's tour my world :)

my wall :)

my lil corner :)

my boo :)

and well, of course, my dbsk collection ^^

my ipod, the reason why i was able to go through sophomore year.

not surprising right? :)

think about it.

2009-06-09T19:15:00.000-07:00

You know you’re obsessed with DBSK when you…

[going to :)]1. Buy a new phone because the old one didn’t let you put DBSK ringtones

[]2. Set your internet passwords to go along the lines of ‘Yunjaeyoosumin<3’ & ‘DBSKHwaiting^’

[X HELL YEAH]3. Have your computer desktop icons moved because, ‘they were covering Jaejoong’s face’.

[]4. Cry when you see them perform…on tv.

[]5. Have already thought up the names of your future children with them.

[]6. You want a penis so that you can join the fun you KNOW is going on.
lmao

[]7. Hear people call then gay and you say get excited and say ‘Really? Who do you think is dating who?’

[]8. Refuse to call them a ‘boy band’ and call them ‘man band’ or ‘acapella dance group’.

[]9. Place health, family, and school 2nd place behind watching streaming DBSK and fangirling.

[]10. Date an Asian just to be one step closer.

[]11. Hum DBSK songs when passing Asians in hopes they’ll talk to you.

[]12. Cut your hair like one of the members.

[]13. Start learning Korean or Japanese just in case you ever meet them.

[]14. Curse Cassiopeia, but praise them for their fancams.

[]15. Realized you were a pedophile the first time you watched Hug.

[]16. Realize you have more fangirl friends than real friends…

[]17. Celebrate the members’ birthdays, but not your significant other’s.

[]18. Have turned your mother into a fangirl, and have moved on to your dad.

[]19. Debate whether you should eat for the next month or get that new photobook.

[x]20. Read Fanfiction at work/school.

[]21. Write Fanfiction at work/school.

[]22. Start believing Mpreg might be possible.

[]23. Learn Photoshop just so you can draw naked fanart.

[]24. Have at least one Photoshoped photo of the members as girls.

[x for fun LOL]25. Rank the men you meet from ‘not even human’ to ‘godly like DBSK’.

[]26. Buy a 1TB external hard drive for all the HQ & HD DBSK goodness.

[x]27. Have uploaded a video on youtube related to DBSK.

[]28. Hear the word OT5 and get mental pictures.

[]29. Have made it your life mission to convert everyone to the DBSK way.

[x]30. Join LiveJournal just for the DBSG community.

[x]31. Join Soompi for the same reason.

[]32. Buy their album…all 4 versions…

[]33. Snarl like an animal at any female they get close to.

[]34. Get confused in biology when they tell you ‘Sheep’ and ‘Bunnies’ can’t have babies.

[]35. Squeal w/joy when you find out ‘Lions’ and ‘Tigers’ CAN have babies.

[]36. Expect every singer to be able to sing in 4 languages.

[X best thing about fandoms]37. Know the Korean fan chants and scream while you watch them perform.

[]38. Hear people talk about them breaking up you yell, ‘5-1=0, 5-1=0!!!!’

[]39. Ask your significant lover to ‘squeal like a dolphin’ and get upset when they don’t do it right.

[x only think about junsu whenever] 40. Associate the word ‘duck’ with Xiah’s generous posterior.

[]41. Expect ‘Eu Kyung Kyung’ to come out in the dictionary.

[]42. Realize you channel Sir Mix-a-Lot every time you see Junsu’s butt.

[]43. Find yourself understanding and laughing at Xiah’s oyagi gags.

[]44. Don’t think playing soccer on someone’s forehead is impossible.

[]45. Think Chunglish is an actual language, and study it.

[]46. Start to think guys that cry in public are ‘fucking sexy’.

[]47. Begin wearing shoes w/o socks because Micky does it.

[]48. Find that Micky Mouse ears turn you on.

[]49. Swear MinxFood is your OTP.

[x YEAH]50. Found yourself shopping for Mangdoongie at the pet store.

[]51. Expect all Asians to be as tall as Max.

[]52. Freak out that the songs on the radio don’t have a ‘sonic scream’.

[]53. Start to think Max’s so snarky he might be Snape’s nephew.

[x because i really admire him o.o]54. Think all leaders should be like Yunho, and get disappointed when they aren’t.

[]55. Have read/written a haiku about U-Know’s lip mole.

[LOL YES]56. Love that U-Know thinks Bambi is a girl.

[]57. Acquire an obsession with moobs.

[]58. Ask your significant other why THEY don’t have a small face like U-Know.

[x]59. Swear that Hero could win the title of ‘Miss Universe’ if only they allowed men to enter.

[x I LOVE HIM! either way!]60. Know Hero can’t dance (well) and Don’t Fucking Care.

[X DEFINITELY.]61. Think Hamtaro PJs are the sex.

[]62. Find that expressionless men are your ideal.

[]63. Realize you’re a sadist when you see Jaejoong tied to a wall.

[]64. The top 30 songs on your iTunes are all by DBSK.

[]65. Automatically classify anyone who doesn't know who DBSK are as clueless idiots as inferior human beings.

[x]66. Feel the need to listen to DBSK 24/7...even in your sleep.

[]67. See a mirror and think 'MIROTIC'.

[]68. Acquire a fetish for black silk.

[]69. See the number 69 and you wonder which members are at it right now.

[]70. Cry when people say DBSK is getting old.

[]71. Play word-association and the first thing that comes to mind has to do with DBSK...even the word sardine.

[x but only some]72. Think men look better with eyeliner.

[]73. Have a spontaneous orgasm at the mention of anything DBSK related.

[]74. Think it's normal for men to wear more bling than you.

[]75. Don't know Korean, but can correctly sing every single song with perfect pronunciation.

[]76. Cosplay/Consider-Cosplyaing as one of the boy's Balloons outfits, and going to an anime convention to see how many people glomp the shit out of you.

[]77. Name your new puppy 'Max' or 'Hero' in honor of DBSK.

[]78. Start adorning your msn-chats/text messages with emoticons (when you used to hate those things) after you found out Jae does it.

[x]79. No longer think purses aren't gender specific.

[]80. Know & celebrate their birthdays, but can't remember your friends' OR parents...hm...

[]81. Compare the age of every person you meet how old they'd be in relation to -insert member here-.

[x]82. Buy things with the color red simply because it's DBSK's color.

[ X HEHE]83. Have pictures of them on your school supplies.

[x teacher thought jae was a girl...GRR]84. Have had to explain who they are to a teacher because he/she notcied the pictures on your school supplies.

[]85. Have learned the moves to more than one of their dances.

[]86. Would gladly date one of their siblings, if only because that would mean you were related to them.

[]87. Move a guy closer to the top of your 'who I'd date list' just because he is a fanboy.

[]88. Are confident you'd be instant friends with just about every other DBSK fangirl, even if you didn't speak the same language.

[X]89. Giggled when you first heard the new album was called Mirotic, because you knew they wanted to call it 'Erotic', but couldn't.

[]90. Spontaneously orgasm every time somebody says 'HEY!' to you.

[]91. Swear the Cartier Love Rings prove, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that Jaeho is infact real.

[]]92. Love the fact that some people still believe they are straight.

[]93. Get mad when a non-fan calls them gay, since they are using it as an insult, but when a fan says it, you spend the next few hours debating parings and end up remembering ot5 is the real heart of the matter.

[]94. Say red is your favorite color, even if it isnt.

[]95. Curse Lee SooMan for knowing how to rape you of any money you planned on having, ever.

[]96. Have convinced yourself that 6 years (or more) is not really that big of an age difference when it comes to dating/getting married (just because you'd like to believe you had a chance with them if you met them).

[]97. At one point or another you joked about/seriously considered nameing one of your current/future children after them.

[]98. Are determined to turn your current/future son into a fanboy.

[]99. Realize the most organized folder on your computer is the one that holds your pictures of DBSK, all 1,000+ of them...

[]100. Laugh when you realize jae's nickname is 'BooJae', because now anytime Yunho says, 'My Boo' (which is often), it's more proof of the Jaeho lovin'.

YAY WE REACHED 100~ ^_^

[]101. Notice that Yunho used to say JaeJae was his BFF4L, but now he says its Minmin, thus implying that Jaeho MUST have accepted Min into their lovin'. Tru Fax.

[X]102. Utterly LOVE the person who came up with the idea that the boys turn and sing to each other during their powerballads (whoever that was).

[x FREAK YEAH]103. Swear that X-Man was the greatest show ever invented, since you could watch dbsk do the most random shit ever.

[]104. Learn how to play korean games, like OF COURSE, just because DBSK play it

[]105. Know MinMin watches porn, and love it.

[]106. Know more about DBSK then you do your own relatives (oh yes, its true, and you know it).X

[]107. Watched 'the lion king' and decided what DBSK members would be which characters.

[]108. Meet DBSK fans whereever you go, including a Dir en Grey concert

[]109. Immediately blame any outfit and/or hairstyle you don't like on the boys' stylists, even if you're looking at stalker pictures and its obvious the boys chose it themselves.

[x AMEN]110. Believe DBSK is a health hazard, because you are seriously worried they might give you a heart attack one day (yoosumin sexy counting anyone?), though you would die happy.

[x]111. Have written "I love DBSK" or something similar in the sand on a beach.

[X]112. Have learned to write in Korean, but only the boys' names...

[x my lucky charms]113. Have used DBSK in more than one school project for which you earned a grade.

[x i wont deny it]114. Have wished more than once that you were one of the boys' microphones.

[]115. Have fanfiction as the primary source of literature in your life.

[x]116. Stay up all night watching an award show streaming live from halfway across the world in a language you don't understand, just to see them perform and see which awards they won, and even end up late for work, but it's worth it.

[X LOL]117. Use their scant, and awkwardly worded, English phrases in your daily life. Ex. "Let's do this!"

[X i want something comfy :_]118. Have looked up Jaejoong's hamtaro PJ's up on E-bay and Seriously considered buying them.

[]119. Know more about gay sex than some actual gay people. Yes, you've read THAT MANY smut fics.

[]120. Dream about DBSK or DBSK related things almost every single night.

[X]121. Spazz when one of them looks straight at a fancam even though you know they aren't exactly looking at you.

[]122. Buy a new computer just to do DBSK stuff.

[X]123. Go to the Korean CDs section first, to see if they have DBSK's album.

[]124. Start to imagine how Yunjae's babies will look like whenever you see some cute babies.

[X]125. Jam out full blast in your car to DBSK. Rollin'!

[x]126. Ignore your severe lack of wallspace and order the Mirotic poster, cuz of the Ho!nips.

[]127. Give DBSK names to all your electronics.

[]128. Then cry when you drop 'Junsu' the cellphone.

[X]129. Proudly display your DBSK collection despite disapproval by the parentals.

[X hehe]130. Write your name + a member on every piece of blank (and sometimes not blank) paper you find.

[]131. Have your 'ideal man' list consisting of DBSK attributes. (big butt, small face, broad shoulders...)

[]132. Think Yunho's scar is so sexy, you almost want to cut up your boyfriend's face so he has one too.

[]133. Try to figure out who's last name would fit better with your first name...in case you got married...

[]134. Support all SM artists, since they've probably talked to DBSK.

[]135. Stand next tall people and pretend they're DBSK.

[x]136. Have joined every DBSK related community on Livejoural & Soompi...EVERY community.

[X]137. Find any possible excuse to use some of Changmin's UFO replies in real life.

[]138. Stay up into the wee hours of the morning checking what you've done off this list.

[]139. Send videos of the boys singing 'Happy Birthday' to your friends on THEIR birthdays.

[]140. Find out that lonely girl int he corner of the classroom is a DBSK fangirl and you become friends.

[]141. Sit in class and all the people around you now know who DBSK are.

[x ALL THE TIME]142. Think of Jaejoong anytime anyone mentions Heroes.

[X next year YAY]143. Sqeal with delight upon discovering your school color is going to be red, and yell out 'DBSK HWAITING!' at pep-rallies.

[]144. Add '...in bed with DBSK' when reading out your fortune cookies.

[]145. No longer find 'trap stamp' tattoos on men strange.

-

im bored what you think?

a cat ♥

2009-05-30T23:32:00.000-07:00

happy 100th post.

lol, a random post.
but hey don't yunho remind you of a cat?
okay, i know this is getting weirder and weirder.

to make this post more useful. visit me at my twitter.
username is mcl0521 and also join hypnoticasia.com
and what else?

continue supporting dbsknights :)
im going to celebrate my 2nd month there in 9 days.
im so happy im part of the team.

i also want to say thank for everyone who greeted me HB
in facebook. myspace. twitter. dbsknights. forums. ygladies.
onetvxq. shinki. shineee.net. soshified.

you guys are jjang. and Rachel, your JJ cake giving to me is ♥
and youngwoong and bikeu saranghae.

yongwonhi youngwoong forever

teukie, my not so angelic turtle :)

2009-05-30T09:24:00.000-07:00

after my snarky red beta min, i have an additional sea creature in my bedroom.
my friend gave me a baby turtle for my birthday and he just reminded me of teukie,
the first time i saw him. so i have to name it teukie right? but, unlike my leeteukie, teukie is
not the friendliest creature out there. lol, i think im destined to get grumpy pets, ne?

i actually took a video of my turtle. he's not moving LOL. and he always sleep a lot.

this is too cute not to be posted here in my blog. my soulmate ♥

someone else stole my heart o.o

2009-05-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

credit: as tagged

Look how Vick drag his master? Poor tiny Jae can't handle big Vick..
Tsk, tsk, that's why you need me.

Big Vick + Normal MEL + Tiny Jae =

happy family

LOL.

hey a girl can dream right?

the only thing i could possibly do would be getting my own pyrenees

that's life :(

anyways let's enjoy vick and jae :)
and bonus of xiahki getting mauled by big vick :D

vick, get hold of yourself! LOL

you're so cute and white :)

i want you!

and your owner, shh..

random ps...but i must tell you Susan Boyle is FRIGGIN` amazing.
i finally decided to crack my korean nutshell and watch some television and oh boy.
she's amazing~
you rock, Susan :)

min. min. min :)

2009-05-23T22:18:00.000-07:00

mine. mine mine.

yah! listen to me :D

astonished vs. grossed out ^^

the smartest out of tvxq, looks the most confused. LOL

credit: as tagged

i got me my beta! hehe, was the soon too FAST?
well i kinda get impatient and just bought it this morning.

i was having trouble what to name it but after realizing that
my sis named her blue beta kyu, i just have to name my red beta...
min, of course! magnaes :)

i should get light blue/teal next time, for my taem!
and pink for my seoh? ^^

anywhos. anoter part of the aquatic family would be added in my room :)
turtle. or. turtlesss? hehe, i would try one turtle for now and get more later.

im saving up for a better aquarium for my...i don't know his name yet :(
im still deciding but teuk-teuk is what i really like right now. and my next turtle would be joongie? LOL and then onew :D and then TOP. and then hyunnie! LOL.

sorry im being random but im for sure only getting two turtles..too many turtles could kill my wallet x.X

btw, i still need these following to complete my kpop-ness

dbsk :
tri-angle, heartmind&soul, T and done with DBSK albums :)
unfortunately, life is bitter...still have to get all their singles.
im actually just planning to get the singles starting their 17th single.
gambate ne? i still have a long way to go but im almost there!

suju :
twins, don't don.
ill finish this fast ^^

shinee :
shinee 1st mini, shinee world, shine 2nd mini
i'm actually on progress in this one. ill get all of shinee's stuff in 3 weeks
BWAHAHA.

i also couldnt do this without my patience on saving up money ^^
im telling you, my mom barely helped me! seriously >.<

hehe. well im tired right now and i have to oversleep to feel that i actually have a three day weekend...i wasted my first day of it already so im not gonna for the 2nd day!

annyeong~~

ps, my korean doll charm lost its body. LAME.
i need to get a new charm...im getting a wasabi-kun ^^
im getting a new phone too but not now...although i already have my eyes on samsung memoir

shineeing world

2009-05-22T20:50:00.000-07:00

a day pass my birthday :) i believe that this birthday was a lot better than last year.
tons of people greeted me and of course because i feel complete after making up with a friend.

i also got my own jaebear~ his name is Jae Joong though, thanks to my lacking on Korean knowledge bff. But that's okay, I feel like JAE joong bear is unique :)

i also got dbsk albums from my friends. they ordered them for me ! if only heart, mind and soul was not sold out, aish xD

but anywhos. many things happened. still cant get over my hb experience and juliet mv just came out today.

dbsk is also showing promising concerts in japan. good luck to my loves! and jeez, vick! i love you! i really am starting to love jae's dog..lol, i've always been attracted to big dogs :D

im planning to get a pyrenees ! after college lol.

im also getting a small turtle from a friend! im still trying to figure out things to buy for it..and his name is still under construction. im actually hoping for two hehe

i really want a betta. i hope someone get me a red betta soon!

vick :)

credit: uploader + tagged

When my world started SHINeeng ^^

2009-05-12T14:30:00.000-07:00

This was my first KMF and it was ~~fun~~ .AMAZING. I sat on RAMPSEAT E.
I thought it was going to be not that good because of the lineup but I'm thankful I went because it was FUN.
The only thing that ticked me off was the traffic that happened when I was driving from SD to LA and also the guards. I know I'm not allowed to videotape but then seeing your favorite artists are just...well whatever. I enjoyed it thanks to the unexpected performers such as Kim Tae Woo and Son Ho Young and of course SHINee, SNSD and SS501.

I left SD like 12 and I arrived at LA by 3. Yes, the traffic made it worse. I spend an hour in Ktown Galleria spazzing over one DBSK poster, LOL.
I immediately left and went to HB. It was traffic and was crowded however it's refreshing seeing tons of people.

So 6:30ish the concert started...I didn't really paid much attention till Baek Ji Young performed and Tae Jina, Kim Tae Woo and Eru's dad. They are freaking amazing. My friends keep spazzing over Son Ho Young, I was just pretty neutral but guess who went crazy during SHINee's performance, LOL. I believe that Kim Tae Woo and Son Ho Young's performances were over the top and number 1! They are the best performers that night. PS, my friend April touched him. I told her when SHINee comes, you attack! LOL.

Should I start my fangirling? Here we goo..

It was so funny because I was really neutral during the mini G.O.D performance unlike the people who are getting it on. I was just sitting there waving my lightsticks and swaying and waiting. So after Son Ho Young's performance...I believe he was asking us if who we wants to see..everyone was shouting SHINee (That's how I figured out what the heck is he saying) I keep repeating SHINee as well and boom, my babies came~ I RAN TO THE FRONT of ramp seat section and SCREAMED! I literally did. The inner fangirl inside me took over. LOL

I saw Onew first with his all white get-up and I must say he looks really adorable. I mean it! And of course, I must spot Taemin fast too and I did second after Onew with his darn bright yellow pants. He looks too nervous, poor kid. But he still danced amazing. All the SHINee boys are really good looking in person. I'm serious! Jonghyun gave me the impression of a gangster style and it's hot. Minho was just oh my. He looks really gorgeous in person and Key he's so pale and he looks really handsome! Every second of their performance, I'm shrieking. LITERALLY. I'm not even kidding. I was so shocked that SHINee performed AMIGO after Replay..I was expecting Love like Oxygen but who could have thought it was the damn END?! Before spazzing and complaining, I must say SHINee had the best fanchant. The AMIGO fanchant was amazing. Everyone was just like Korean fans. SHINee loved this so much and blue crowd So yes, SHINee performed two songs and it was disappointing how small their performance was but I must admit seeing Taemin for even 6 minutes I'm happy and I can die anytime. I must tell you guys what I've found out though.

SNSD! I confess that on this night I fell in love with SNSD. I didn't use to like them and not this much but seeing them live and in person. I fell in their traps and I'm happy with that. They are gorgeous and pure amazing. I definitely want to see them again. I really hate the fact that some members microphone were not working out too good for example..Taeyeon's. I was pissed. I can't even hear her! Aish but still it was a great performance, I just hope for better microphones next year, okay? Jessica and Taeyeon's duets are love. I really love both of these songs..I was hoping for Tiffany to have a duet too. I seem biased because they are my top three favorites!

SS501 = LOVE. Kyu Jong, Hyun Joon and Young Saeng came out first and I already spazzed because I saw Hyun Joong at the back practicing ^^ My sis was like Hyung Joong is not there, dang idiot. I'm like foo` look back and she did and start shrieking with me. They are so hyped up and even though I'm a big fan of Hyun Joong, I must tell you that Jungmin gave me the best impression...he was waving at me or my side..well let's keep it AT ME every time! I kinda believe it's for me because of another incident that I must tell you later. My friends who didn't know about SS501 that much kept asking me who was that guy with glittery scarf and I'm like Hyun Joong and they are like I LOVE HIM. LOL. Hyun Joong actually went to the extended stage and I almost touched him. PETTY GUARDS. GRR. However he kept waving at us and OMGOD, I continued loving him! I really wanna see him person. Overall, they are amazing. I love the Because I'm stupid song that they sang.

I expected all the artists to perform for the last part and jeez, SHINee and SNSD didn't come out but then I was thinking maybe of their schedules?! I don't know, I forgot about it because I was jumping around with Hyun Joong. The concert ended with beautiful fireworks and we left. My sis and friends pulled a prank and they started screaming. Lol, the fans were all like false alarm. And after that we came down. And the screaming started again and it's not false alarm because SHINee and SS501 just passed by ^^

SHINee car passed and because of the darn lights that focused on ramp seat E the whole time I was really dizzy and almost got seizures. I damned those lights. Freaking unnecessary. However, I still saw SHINee and Taemin <3. I only remembered his yellow pants thought I still felt dizzy. However, SS501 car came and Jungmin...I SWEAR he's waving at me. He's going crazy waving and his smile OH MY. LOL.

After that no more sightings but I'm pretty much content. Now I'm going to share you what I've discovered. This may be true or not but this came from a friend who also went, stayed at the hotel and got a hug from ONEW dear.

She told me that during her roaming around Wilshire that night, she noticed how sad SHINee members were sad and she overheard that they were suppose to sing four songs. Replay, Amigo, Love like Oxygen and Stand by Me. However, they were rushed by someone or something? My friend also mentioned that Taemin got scared. SHINee did not know how many fans they have here in the United States. The lovely fanchants and blue balloons and lightsticks probably overwhelmed the magnae. Everyone noticed how stiff Taemin was and this is may be the reason. My poor baby but my friend said he got over it and he was jumping all around at Wilshire that night. She said hi to him and he adorably said hi back. My friend said that he looks really adorable up close. Thank goodness ^^ I really hope to see my Taemin again next year and I'm getting POOL. I must!

BTW, DJ Isak is hecka pretty and nice!

My fancams:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfAmVP3IX1k
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jn-lDQX41-Y...feature=channel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZoIn2stAvk...feature=channel

and more...

another opening..

2009-05-07T18:07:00.000-07:00

i guess someone possessed me and pushed me to talk to her.
i believe that we're okay now but it's awkward but i'm happy to have her again.

btw, 2 days from now...KOREAN MUSIC FESTIVAL!
this is going to be tight! YAY! i promise good quality videos and well of course damn gorgeous pictures if you only see Taemin and Jessica most of the time. FIGURES. they are my faves.

if you're going...say hello to the girl with taemin shirt on. that's me skillz.
weeks or i guess one more week. hypnoticasia is going to put your fire out.

that's right skillets. ima go CL to you. and some fingerlicking by minji HAHA.
should i put pampers pants too so that i could get your heart pumping?

im so random but hey at least an update on how im going freaking crazy right now.
my sis is going crazy on me because i bought two tickets while she has two extras but then is it my damn fault my friend want to sit with me? and well it was her money. not mine. geez.

well for now this is it. ill post a slideshow that ive been working on for a weeks later.
nights!

life is not what you dreamt of...

2009-05-02T09:31:00.000-07:00

i'm so busy. i can't even keep up with my own blog.
school stuff. internet stuff. and such things are on the way.
i can't even photoshop for darn sakes!

starryxnight would start rolling once july sets in. hehe watch out for us guys!
btw, it's pacquiao match today so i wont be on till further notice.
im kinda excited but then that would cut my internet time and also well homework time.

to kill the first hours of my saturday, im downloading dbsk old shows.
they are so cute since then! and well, speaking of dbsk...

i got my Secret Code album.
lol and i didnt get jaejoong but yunho but i still like it and going to collect it.

im also buying their old albums for the sake of being a fan :)
and well i need to really catch up.
i feel like buying all their photobooks :D

i want it all! LOL

How would you start without something to start on?

2009-04-23T21:02:00.000-07:00

I'm screwed.

not enough money for a university. maybe no future?
soka. soka. soka. that name is stucked in my head since this morning. i even took an application home to get this dilemma out of my head.

but guess what, i think i may start all over again.

she told me, high probability of me not getting accepted is HIGH. because im only 16.

my confidence went down the drain in one snap!

but Carmel doesn't give up.
i must try to perservere to get my dream.

will i be able to live my dream? will i achieve it? will i go to SOKA?

i hope so.

My dear inspiration, please inspire me more. I'm so sad here --.---

credit as tagged

soka. Soka. SOka. SOKa. SOKA.

2009-04-22T18:06:00.000-07:00

my dream university.

but it's private.
life sucks and i realized it MORE today.
i wish i'm rich and all and i don't need to worry about my damn college.
i really do wanna go to
SOKA.
it's a living dream.

i could travel to different places and shit. i do wanna go?! why is life so MEAN?

soka. i want SOKA.

You're so hurt to the point you feel nothing..

2009-04-19T18:44:00.000-07:00

i feel nothing after hearing ridiculous things coming off of my mom's mouth. would you ever imagine your mom telling you, i should have given you to your father maybe my life could have been better. that comment was nothing to me anymore maybe because i've heard it for many times that i don't even care anymore?

i just hope that she did not say that especially with my case with a father i have never met.
she is selfish.
i would love for someone to get me away from her.
i love her and all but she thinks for herself and she wonders why she doesn't know anything about me?
RIDICULOUS.
but that doesn't matter, with these guys my life is happy. i hope i was lucky like them because their mothers are amazing and supportive.
maybe that's the reason why they are happy and content.

credit : dbsknights

la la la loving the world but you just have to destroy it!

2009-04-17T18:02:00.000-07:00

screw you! you're so annoying, gah i feel squeezing
your ugly rat face! mind your own business, old man!

i've never felt so mad in my entire life after meeting that incompetent bizznotch. you ruined my damn day and because of you i probably failed my ap exam! you skank!
sorry, guys, for using such language but have you guys ever felt like you just have to get rid of someone?! jeez, even thinking about jae didn't help to calm me down. gah, i hope you guys won't get a teacher like him. wait is he even a TEACHER?!

GRR!

anyways, let's brighten the mood up shall we? i recommend you guys watch this video:

isn't it too cute? lol posting jaejoong stuff makes me calm down :D

lol, well except for first period today, the rest of the day was fun and easy peasy :D spanish went fast, ap art exam was okay but i missed two points :( English was English, students in this class are hilarious :D and chemistry, i ace the test skillz! And algebra, I brought one of my lucky charm and ACE the chapter test. Actually a friend gave me a yunho poster that day and i brought it with me to my algebra class and i believe his presence helped me. im so cheating on jae right now but yunho is slowly climbing up ^^ but then jae still and will always have the keys to my ♥

after searching through random stuff, i found more adorable old pics of jaejoong and i screen capped some too.

isn't he just adorable? lol, i am going crazy.
btw before i become crazierrr, please join ygladies.com! it's the first international forum for the new girl band 2NE1. i'm staff there and feel free to talk to me about it. they don't bite! i promise!
also im a new author in DBSKnights. they are awesome. lol basically it's a group of authors that are around the world so basically this blog is a non-sleeping org. lol because of our time zone differences. you could always check out new and important stuff about dbsk of course :D

and tha plans for the weekend? hm...
kill a rat perhaps ? *killer smile

i don't waste my time on bizznotches. LOL.
well, my plans are...stay home...do homework...and HIKE :)
can you believe it? neither do i! it's like a once in a lifetime experience for ME.
and guess where we're going? Kitchen Creek! I decided to go because they said that it's
the easiest hike ever so I'm for it. Why not, right?
it's going to be so hot...so best of lucks to me! you guys too!
lol, i just remembered my 150 questions due next week.
dang it.

annyeong~

We were inseparable, what happened?

2009-04-15T18:29:00.000-07:00

Forever.

I guess that word is just a word. Without a meaning, I guess.
Doesn't it feel disappointing? I wonder how the lining we shared was slowly destroyed.
Maybe we still share something precious but not special enough to cover up the way we were before. I feel deeply sorry that I was unable to tug on that rope of hope but you do know I need you to tug unto it to right?
Well.
I guess world is indeed a bitter place. No one can promise your future. Lol, little did I know this relationship we shared would also go against our promise. I guess it's because of our differences that it didn't seem to matter at first. How irresponsible of me to think foolishly. I hoped we did share same dreams but then I was too stubborn to not admit it earlier to myself that we will never walk on the same road, walk in the same speed and think identical. However, even though we are this broken thing right now, I hope well not fix it, because what's damage will always be damaged but to maintain it. Even though it's poor condition, we could still have it living. I hope you'll find the person that will be on the same paper as you and I hope I will too.

Credits: DBSKnights

I thought I was in heaven singing with an angel

2009-04-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

happy birthday, sweet voice Jonghyun :)

i'm tired and frustrated. i'm dissapointed with the KMF list but i guess that's how life works. i'm still hopelessly hoping for that two rumored artists. i do know that it's not going to be dbsk but still, i want more! speaking of the jjangs, congratulations for being able to perfom at Tokyo Dome! you guys are sugoiii! aishiterru! i wish i can go to japan this sumer and atted at least one of your concerts! i don't care if some prices are WAY up there because seeing and listening to you LIVE would be hecka worth it :)
i revamped my blogsite because i feel the other one is kinda dry and too dark for me. the military green is not really impressive for me right now. *coughmilitarcough. stars are lovely aren't they? whoever made this layout arigato! sorry i forgot your name so i don't really know how to credit you.
im currently at spring break right now and dude i want to die. no i don't want to go back to school im just dreading the day of coming back to school. i really want to get off school...i can't believe i'll be a junior already o.o things are just going to fast huh? im going to be sixteen in a month and i still feel like a 10 year old.
weird.
even though im quite dissapointed with KMF i'm still happy because i'm going to see SNSD, SHINee and SS501. they are worth my $130 and im still in the process of getting money to buy their lovely support thingies lol. im going to be a rainbow in full force~~ watch me shine at night! LOL.
ok, im adding crap right now and well more right?
i watched antique bakery and it's HECKA funny. kinda gets inappropriate but approriate enough for a 15 year old like me. i recommend it, i guess i liked it because of the mystery of the cake pervert man. lol, i threw the pervert it because i believe that kidnapper is pervy in some way :O
i actually need more movies to watch so i won't get nerdy and watch Law and Order 24/7
Please.

PS. joongie i received your red paper plane!

Credit as tagged

the angel I would like to keep.

2009-04-03T23:37:00.000-07:00

♥ happy birthday hyukie

~~★★★~~

~~♥♥♥~~

~~***~~

Who else could had pull the storm out of my way?

2009-04-02T20:44:00.000-07:00

Duh.

My favorite man in this world and favorite child actor, Jaejoong and Jeebin.

Credits: DNBN and DBSKnights

And I was encouraged to start my own fic. Lol, I will once I get time. I'll start writing again and I hope that you guys will anticipate it. Annyeong~~

Like a fool...

2009-04-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

Enjoy your lovely fools day. I already fooled five people..Must get some more *wink wink.

I'ma go sleep and get fooled tomorrow :D

By the way your zipper is opened...

And you wonder why I'm so in love with him?

The sadness I found through his eyes...

2009-03-29T12:41:00.000-07:00

And it bothers me...If only I can go to Korea or Japan, I would take that sadness away from you!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcQStHmo_nU&feature=channel_page
He looks so sad doesn't he?

Since the last time I wrote something here, nothing really happened. Maybe my template changed but I'm thinking of changing it again because it looks not good for me. I finally found the Family Outing videos! I hope to finish them soon and have a great laugh. Wah, Yoo Jaesuk is hilarious! Daedae your awesome!

And you rat at Scripps~ you're the one who look like crap. Gosh, your a freaking ignorant bizznotch! I hate you and yes 80% of the corps don't like you either! Bleh~ I hope you get cut. GR.
Sorry about that, I'm just really pissed if that is not obvious huh? I really want this school year to end to get out of that damn school. I feel bad for the people saying for getting such a guy like him. If you're smart...don't stay!

Enough of that rat crap...Go join the first 21 international forum. I'm staff there so if you have any questions just ask me! I'll be happy to help you. Please visit and join us http://ygladies.com/forums/index.php?act=idx

and Hope Concert 2009. I'll make sure I'll go somewhere and see Dong Bang live!

BTW, I'm pretty satisfied with HB list after they confirmed that SS501 is going. I'ma see my Hyun Joong~ Lol, but I'll be more happy if my dear Teuki go to...and guess what?

I fell a billion more times with Joongie. His secret code is amazing. Don't worry JJ, I'll listen to it at least once a day!

Your amazing. Where can I find someone like you?

Blue eyes I would die for...

2009-03-22T22:47:00.000-07:00

Really made my day. I guess I would be okay once I see Jaejoong and would forget all the events that happened last night. Lol, should I just make it...Imagine he was my first slow dance? LOL.

More updates about the dance later. Doing damn homework for now.

Picture credit : SharingYoochun ( Can I share with you guys? Hehe...*gets kick by JJ)

I did it for love!

2009-03-17T19:10:00.001-07:00

BoA's first English album is released today and I love it. I'm still waiting for my hard copy though..

Anyways, this week is one quick one because of two half days because of evil CAHSEE. Don't misunderstand, CAHSEE is super duper easy..it's just that it's boring --.-- And tomorrow will be the last part which is the math portion I'm not really comfortable with but I'll pass it! I will! LOL.

Anyways, I want to thank Lee Min Ho for clearing something so big to me whole Valentines, White and Black day for me. I guess Black Day is the most suitable thing for me? Kekeke.

The Korean tradition really do fascinate me and these interesting facts regarding their culture makes me more want to travel and live there.

So February 14 for them is actually when girls confess to the guys and give them chocolates. And then March 14 is when guys return the girls feelings by giving them chocolate back. April 14 is for all singles and those who wasn't brave enough to confess. Lol, I'm not in love with anyone so no one to confess to. So yeah.. But isn't this cute little thing interesting?

Last sunday, I finished my dance shopping. I'm 99% done! I just need a nail polish...WHY DID I FORGET ABOUT THAT? Well during shopping I really doubted that I could match all the things that I bought with my dress but luckily after trying it all out when I got home, it all matched! I'm so happy and that's probably the reason why I'm so excited about the dance this coming saturday :)

So monday? Nothing that interesting happen except no homeworks and such. Thank you, my few selected lovable teachers *cough cough.

Then today...I CUT MY HAIR.
Thank goodness they didn't cut the lenght. And I like it because it showed that I cut it and it looks stylish unlike my used to be dull hair. And my mom's dying my hair this friday, I hope it will look good :)

--.-- Before I go, I have to complain! HOW COME JJ's DRAMA IS NOT OUT YET?! HMM?
I want to see it! SOON!

And whoever going to watch Fast and the Furious, you'll see me there with you! Don't worry!

And if you know me well you'll know why I'll be watching that movie. HAHAHA

PS. I'm thirsty for him xD

Happy White Day!

2009-03-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

March 14th.

Guys give chocolate or flowers to girls. Just like Valentines but then I just feel slightly biased with White Day for some weird reason...

Hehe..my asianess probably.

But then, I had no one to celebrate it with...

but do I care? Hehe. NO. Because he's more yummier than your sweetest and expensive choco!

please tell me if you are going to use it. and credits please :)

credit: sharingyoochun

I'm piss. I'm sick. I'm tired.

2009-03-06T18:27:00.000-08:00

I did had an interesting yet disturbing hiatus away from blog . First, I got btched up by my damn teachers, second, I got chewed out by my peers, third, I miss my Jaejoongie. LOL, I am a dork.

Although, I do realize one thing...In this world you don't always get what you want even though it seem like it is but the truth is...it's way farther than that.

I sound very pessimistic but please try to bear my stress with me.

I feel like I'm doing ping-pong using my heart. I got too much things in my mind. I don't know when to stop and where to stop. I don't know how to end all the things I've done. It really is too much for me to take in and I need a psychologist soon......

AIGOO

As you can see, I'm dead stress . Mianhada, my Jaejoongie but even you didn't lift my spirit one bit up. I'm really sorry but you will always remain in my heart, don't worry! Haha, I am going crazy...

So the weekend before this coming one I bought my dress for this one dance that I don't really look forward too as much as I did last year when I was a stupid freshman. I got too tired to wear the dresses that I just mini maini moe them. LOL. And then I ended up with the purple dress that complemented my skin color but not as much to my scar. This scar made me feel worse. I feel like crap looking at it because it reminds me of what happened and it doesn't look good and it itches. Damn annoying.

I'm still looking for a white cover up because I still don't like how my white bolero look with my dress. I do hope find the perfect partner for it before this coming week end or else I'll die. I also need to know what accessories would match with it and will be able to hide my fat "SICKA" star.

Lol I did named my scar. SICKA the scar.

I both hate and love it. I have too many reasons why I hate it but then one reason why I love it.

And it is because it shows how much I've experienced in this world even though I'm only 15 and a half old. I'm young but experience too much things...

I don't know when again I would be back because I'm really dead tired busy. School here, school there, school OVER there. LOL. I do hope I can write some more so I could release some of my stress but then I have to go because I need to watch this one movie my friend is nagging me about.

annyeong~~

"If the person you love is not with you,
wherever you go in the world is a lonely place."

Happy Birthday Lee Hong Ki!

2009-03-02T00:00:00.000-08:00

My favorite from F.T Island. I hope you enjoy your birthday and best wishes xD

Saranghae <3

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2009-02-24T19:39:00.000-08:00

Join! I'm a moderator there and if you have any questions just pm me.
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Please join because the more the merrier xD

I'm sad. Lol, I need a break from people that have been polluting my already fucked up mind. I really hope that all this crap would be done with in no time. Nonetheless, thank you my Aethios for making me feel better. You guys are the best. This is why DBSK loves us! Haha, seriously, thank you! You guys kept the knife away from my throat :(

So while I was gone I watched one of Jun Matsumoto's movie during Valentines xD He's my date, lol. And T.O.P and Daniel Henney in Family Outing, a double treat! Go to www.youtube.com/user/ramensoupsubs for English subbed episodes. Thank you RAMEN!

So updates? Nothing really. Today at school I missed like three periods because of ASVAB testing. It was boring...well all tests right? But this one, I tried to take it seriously because it will predict my future xD I really do hope whatever the result would be...I'll be happy with it.

Last week, I picked my classes for my junior year :D Check it out:

Hon. English
Pre-Calculus
Adv. Biology
AP U.S History
Computerized Graphic Design 1-2
Spanish 5-6

I really do want to take Mandarin but GAH, Spanish :( Well anyways, I tried watching BBF and now that's the reason I'm leaving! TTYL

Mirotic Concert...

2009-02-20T16:56:00.001-08:00

GAH !
Let me live in Korea, pretty please???

Pictures credit as tagged

Yay! Update xD and I still want to live in Bangkok :(

2009-02-14T19:00:00.000-08:00

Lol, whatever but that concert is just once in a lifetime! Lee Soo Man have all your artists have a concert here in California preferably LA! I'll go, gee, I think everyone would go!

I hope that day come soon, pretty please?

I'm so jealous of all those fan accounts I've read...lucky girls. xD
Anyways, have to share this cute pictures of Jae and his elephant :)

Isn't pretty obvious how biased the pictures are??? Yes, that is my fault. I edited it and focused it on Jaejoong...because I just want to! Lol, well what else happened?

School is school. Nothing good happens and well except for ginormous awards we keep bringing home every saturday. Even though I'm having a hard time in RO right now I still like it because of the students in it...NOTE: STUDENTS!

I guess you know who I'm talking about right and speaking of school, I have this dilemma I have to solve pretty much soon. Next year my school is going to offer Mandarin and duh of course I want to take it and just take Spanish 5-6 in the city college. Would it be worth it? I hope so...

Anyways, how was valentine ??? Mine is ugh just a normal day, nothing fancy and sweet and crap. Just went and watch Jun Matsumoto movie XD I guess he's my valentine :)

And here I edited this for the lonely hearts. I know him before then but didn't particularly paid attention to him because I don't know but after seeing him rock the violin..I fell in love..well not completely but very impressed.

Enjoy!

Happy Valentines and of course how dare
I don't have no Jaejoong valentine? Tsk, tsk..

Friday, the 13th!

2009-02-13T14:13:00.000-08:00

SHINee is going to Hollywood Bowl.
My money and pissing the heck out of my sister is well worth it!

Yep Khype just announce it and it's confirmed. Now the rumors of Big Bang and Super Junior going? I want them to be all confirmed!!! To be thrice happy!

But if DONG BANG SHIN KI goes...

I'LL BE ECSTATIC

if only...

Anyways, aren't you happy??? SHINee is going

If you see anyone there with a Taemin get up, that's me XD
Lol, I might go crazier and do a total Taemin cosplay

So for now my plan is I'll have my friend make me a custom Taemin shirt and I'll be wearing his rubik cube. Yep! That's how much I love that guy xD

Oh how much I want to live in Bangkok...

2009-02-09T20:48:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to Hangeng and Siwon xD

Belated birthday to Kyuhyun and Yunho

2009-02-06T17:54:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday !!!

A bit late but hey! It's the thought that counts right?

Hello Feb!

2009-02-04T19:38:00.000-08:00

About four days since my last blog o.0
Many things happened during these days. Some are important and some I consider not worth of my time...

Anyways, happy belated birthday to Kyuhyun xD and advance birthday to Yunho.
Always be happy and healthy and BE SAFE.

So the 31st...Crazy day..I was at Long Beach, running around videotaping and freaking about Hollywood Bowl tickets. Unfortunately, I only got the ramp seats tickets but that's good enough for a first timer right?! Next year, I would drive myself up to LA and buy it personally :)

In Long Beach, my school won lots of awards! IN ALL CATEGORIES! Yes, even our Colorguard (5 years passed since the last award :x) I can't post the videos in youtube because it's not allowed but I think I would be able to upload the award ceremony...

SUNDAY, FEB 1
I did nothing, just plain crap. OH I MET A WU CHUN LOOK A LIKE
He's cute like Wu Zun! He's in this drama called Jumong. I seriously loving that drama, so interesting :D I should have slept but then I'm stupid :X

Feb 2. TIRED!!! SCHOOL! NEW SCHEDULE. Nothing changed that much and I don't really give a crap. My new chem class is just too easy...

And yesterday? school again...I FINISHED MY AP ART STUFF. I'm awesome huh?!!!

Haha, wow I wrote not worth it stuffs :x

ANYWAYS. RO BALL is on March 21st. Theme is "Tangled with the stars" I personally like it because I love stars and I hope the pictures would be good too like last year and food. I'm looking forward for the food! And date?! I don't want to...just because....

Pop Idol list :
1 - Big bang, Kwon Jiyong
2 - Wonder Girls, Sohee
3 - DBSK, Xiah junsu
4 - Big Bang, TOP
5 - DBSK, U-Know Yunho
6 - SS501, Kim Hyunjoong
7 - Fin.K.L, Lee Hyori
8 - SNSD, Taeyeon
9 - H.O.T, Jang Woohyuk
10 - DBSK, Micky Yoochun
11 - Big Bang, Daesung
12 - SES, Yoojin
13 - Shinhwa, Eric
14 - Wonder Girls, Sunye
15 - Big Bang, Taeyang
16 - DBSK, Hero Jaejoong
17 - 2PM, Nickhun
18 - Fin.K.L, Sung Yuri
19 - Shinee, Taemin
20 - Super Junior, Eunhyuk
21 - 2AM, Jokwon
22 - SNSD, Yoona
23 - G.O.D, Yoon Gyesang
24 - FT Island, Lee Hongki
25 - Sechs Kies, Eun Jiwon
26 - Dbsk, Changmin
27 - H.O.T., KangTa
28 - Wonder Girls, Sunmi
29 - SHINee Minho
30 - KARA, Han Seungyeon
31 - Bigbang, Seungri
32 - Super Junior, Heechul
33 - H.O.T., Tony An
34 - Shinhwa, Andy
35 - Se7en
36 - 2PM, Chansung
37 - Super Junior, Shindong
38 - SS501, Kim Kyujong
39 - Wonder Girls, Yoobin
40 - SNSD, Tiffany
41 - SHINee, Onew
42 - Super Junior KangIn
43 - Wonder Girls, Yeeun
44 - F.T.Island, Choi Jong Hun
45 - Sugar, Ayumi
46 - Shinhwa, Kim Dongwan
47 - Buzz, Min Kyunghoon
48 - CSJH, Stephanie
49 - Super Junior Siwon
50 - Sechs Kies, Go Ji-Yong
51 - Jung Jihoon (Rain)
52 - S.E.S, Bada
53 - 2PM, TaecYeon
54 - KARA, Goo HaRa
55 - Super Junior Sungmin
56 - SS501, Kim Hyung Joon
57 - 1TYM, Danny
58 - Super Junior Eeteuk
59 - SHINee, Jonghyun
60 - G.O.D, Son HoYoung
61 - SNSD, Seohyun
62 - Shinhwa, Junjin
63 - H.O.T., Moon Heejun
64 - Shinhwa, Shin Hyesung
65 - Click B, Oh, JongHyeok
66 - SNSD, Yuri
67 - Super Junior, Hangyeong
68 - Sechs Kies, Jang Suwon
69 - CSJH, Dana
70 - Super Junior, Kibeom
71 - FIN.K.L, Leejin
72 - Taesaja, Park Junsook
73 - NRG, Moon Seonghun
74 - Baby Vox, Kan Miyeon
75 - Click B, Kim Sanghyuk
76 - SS501, Heo Young Saeng
77 - FIN.K.L, Ok Juhyeon
78 - G.O.D, Denian
79 - Ttma, Soy
80 - 2PM Jaebeom
81 - SHINee, KEY
82 - Sugar, Park Sujin
83 - NRG, No Yumin
84 - 1TYM, Oh Jinhwan
85 - SNSD, Jessica
86 - Shinhwa, Lee Min Woo
87 - F.T.Island, Choi Minhwan
88 - Click B, Yoo Hosook
89 - Super Junior, Donghae
90 - Baby Vox, Shim EunJin
91 - Buzz, Son SungHee
92 - Supernova ,Geonil
93 - Taesaja, Kim hyungjun
94 - SNSD, Sooyoung
95 - Choi Changmin
96 - Milk, Seo Hyunjin
97 - Battle, Hwichan
98 - The TRAX, Jay Kim
99 -Sechs Kies, Kang Aunghoon
100 - Baby Vox Yoon Eunhye

BOLD ARE MY FAVORITES. Italic are my special to me too XD

New FT ISLAND MEMBER IS CUTE!!!
I really am liking him. He have this adorable and angelic face...

check it out :

Pictures : Credit as tagged.
Info: Kpopjjang + allkpop + marineyisme

BUT THE NO ONE CAN BEAT THIS CUTENESS XD MY HERO....

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JJ's Bday is on the 4th?! No reliable source but if it's really true. I made this just for you, hero!

Victory Concert

2009-01-30T00:05:00.000-08:00

Powerhouse presents a grand concert in support of the Korea National Teams and the players who are participating in the 2009 World Baseball Classic and the World Figure Skating Championship. The concert will feature Korean artists and groups who are top-tiered in Korea and will celebrate with the community in hope for their players' triumph in their respective competition. Featuring artists will be announced soon.

TICKETS ON SALE (via Ticketmaster): Feb. 2nd
PHONE SALES (via Powerhouse and Media Partner): Tel: 323.692.0303

LOCATION: Los Angeles, CA
DATE: Saturday, March 21, 2009
TIME: 8PM
VENUE: Nokia Theatre L.A. Live, 777 Chick Hearn Court, Los Angeles, CA 90015
PRICES: $120, $100, $80, $50, $30
TO PURCHASE TICKETS: TICKETS ON SALE SOON!

MCs:
Alex (fr. Clazziquai)
Park Jung Ah (fr. Jewelry)

ARTISTS:
Kim Gun Mo
Baek Ji Young
SS501 (YoungSaeng, KyuJong, HyungJun)
Tae Jin Ah
Jewelry
Lee Eun Mi
WheeSung
Clazziquai

*NOTE: SS501 will consist only three of the members; Heo YoungSaeng, Kim KyuJong and Kim HyungJun.
Kim HyunJoong and Park JungMin will not be attending due to prior commitments.

credits: POWERHOUSE, KHYPE

KOREAN MUSIC FESTIVAL 2009

2009-01-28T17:51:00.001-08:00

KOREAN MUSIC FESTIVAL INFORMATION

LOCATION: Hollywood, CA

DATE: Saturday, May 9, 2009

TIME: 6-11pm

VENUE: Hollywood Bowl, 2301 North Highland Ave., Hollywood, CA 90078

PRICES: $15-$200

TO PURCHASE TICKETS: JANUARY 31st, AT 10AM PST. Online or Call
Online: tickets.koreatimes.com
Call:323-692-2055/ 2068/ 2187

SEATING CHART:

credit: khype.com, koreatimes, soompi forums, kamerru

FIRST BATCH OF ARTISTS

MC: Son Ho Young

Girls’ Generation
Lee Juk
Lena Park
Kim Changwan Band
Son Ho Young

With this list right now, I'm definitely not going....
I'm sorry but it's not that I don't like them but I want to see my favorite kpop bands.

I'm going if either DBSK (prolly not D: bcoz of their tour), SHINee, SuJu, Big Bang and F.T. Island are going. I just need one of my top 5 groups. PRETTY PLEASE?

I'm happy and happy and wait did I say HAPPY?!

2009-01-28T16:32:00.000-08:00

Ok here we go. So I've been feeling like crap these past few days..errk wrong. WEEKS...because of my darn chemistry problems but after taking the finals today, I PASSED IT and done with it! I'm not going to night school anymore and that means I can go to work and save money and possibly go to Korea with mom. Isn't that awesome? Although the idea of working makes me cringe.

I DO NOT WANT TO WORK.

Anyways, I'm still happy. And I still have an hour left before I go study for Spanish for tomorrow's final. What else? KOREAN MUSIC FESTIVAL tickets would be on sale this saturday. I'll be at some place else but still getting those tickets with my sister's help. HEHE. Gosh, I'm so happy right now.

I feel really thankful because of all my friends support about that chem thing. Thank you my buddies, non-Aethio and Aethios. THANK YOU. And of course, Jaejoong, thinking about him made me work hard more for some reasons. I guess he gave me confidence and well just trust maybe. I just feel really inspired after listening to his voice and watching him laugh and perform. You are a great help to me darling JJ. Thank you for your existence.

What else? OH! Lol, I finally finished Jewel in the Palace. It's an amazing story but some parts are redundant and overreacted. But I still like it overall because of the amazing story that showcase Korea's interesting traditions and culture. Kyle XY Season 3 I'm catching up with it by youtube so I hope I can go back to my usual schedules. And BBF, I need to watch it and not get bored. KIM BUM is CUTE. LOL

And photoshopping, I NEED TO GET BETTER. Ah, I wish I'm good as Mon. BTW, MONICA, I love the picture you gave me. It's amazing and I can't help but show it to you guys....

CREDIT MONICA!
mon_x2

The 1st and last reason...

2009-01-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

"Just being himself"

Happy Birthday
Youngwoong Jaejoong

Be happy, Bolero

jj, SMILE because I only THINK OF YOU. You COLOR and LIGHT my world
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jj, my HEART ACHES FOR YOU, so SAVE ME
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A friend had asked how long will it take me to get tired of you. I said I do not know. I can't promise anything but just like other relationships...even if something happened, I'll always treasure you...you will always own little bit part of my heart. It may not be significant to you but you are to me because you brought such happiness to me at the most crucial time of my life. The time of my life when I thought no one is there for me...the time when I thought I'm all alone. But because of you lots of things change. Thank you. I hope what's happening right now will have no end.

Don't forget that even if to the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the WORLD.

The 2nd reason...

2009-01-25T00:46:00.000-08:00

"His hearty laugh..."

Makes my day every time xD

The 3rd reason...

2009-01-24T00:00:00.000-08:00

"His motherly traits..."

Have you notice how he treats his fellow members? Sometimes, he even feed them himself!

The 4th reason...

2009-01-23T06:21:00.000-08:00

"His future message to his love..."

If only...sigh...
Lol XD

The 5th reason...

2009-01-22T15:53:00.000-08:00

"His love for the camera..."

What can I say? I didn't say I don't like it because I really do! Hehe, I love seeing him.

Guys, I'm really thankful for these icons and pictures.

Unnie and Marina thank you for this. And oh Roge! The lovely nickname you gave me! I treasure it! I really love it. And actually matches my personality.

The 6th reason...

2009-01-21T15:51:00.000-08:00

"His funny fights with the magnae known us the "One Touch"

They are so adorable whenever they randomly start fighting.

The 7th reason...

2009-01-20T17:00:00.000-08:00

"His clumsy self..."

He's one of the clumsiest guy I ever know. I think the only clumsy one XD. And we are actually the same :X Do you want to know how clumsy I am? Everyday I'll probably get a tiny wound because I keep hitting myself at walls because I can't walk straight 0.0
I love Jae's and my similarities XD But Jae please be careful okay?

For my Aethio buds!

Make you laugh too:

The 8th reason...

2009-01-19T00:00:00.000-08:00

"His lips..."

Haven't you notice even before how he likes to show off his lips and like lick them? Lol it's so sexy and well such a unique mannerism that everyone in TVXQ has.

Guess what I did the whole day and err midnight? Photoshopping, of course.

Made this for my Asian spazz buddy, Irene. After you marry him, let's migrate to Korea or Japan soon! LOLZ

Remember, once upon a time, you were suppose to marry this one instead? LOL, don't worry, your bro-in-law will never change. ALWAYS JAEJOONG LOVE
hehehe

This morning I got Monica's gifts for me! YAY! It's worth waiting for. Thanks again dear Monica. BTW, these were the banners she made for me that I'm going to post in my blog later on.

Yes, JJ is forever and nobody can stop me to say that I LOVE HIM!!! And if you like it and duh who wouldn't please credit it to mon_x2. She did a good job on making these so please respect.

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Updates: Video is working good and photoshopping, I'm getting better. You'll see my other designs after Jae's birthday. Ok?

The 9th reason...

2009-01-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

"His sexy yet weird dance moves..."

Yes, Jaejoong is not the best dance in TVXQ but he still can dance right? And well it's really cute when he just bs all dance offs and just started dancing randomly. Isn't that cute? LOL.

My video..I need to work on it soon. Maybe tomorrow? Hmm..

The 10th reason...

2009-01-17T00:00:00.000-08:00

"His awestruck/amazed face..."

So cute and made me laugh every time I see one.

Video / pic editing update: It's doing good and big possibility of finishing it this weekend because I don't have school on Monday. Also because the weekend after this I'm off to somewhere XD and guess what? I got photoshop now and my skills are still err. But better than never trying right?

Check them out :

Credit Mcl0521 please!!!

I actually have more than these but blogspot won't let me add more so just visit my photobucket. http://photobucket.com/mcl0521 if for some reason it ask you for a password just type the name of the guy I'm in love with it...which is...

EPIC FAIL! You should know LOL, well its Jaejoong

The 11th reason...

2009-01-16T15:58:00.000-08:00

"His impersonations..."

Lol, I think that explain it. No need to go into details well especially if you really know him. You already know how adorable those impersonations. It brings a big fat smile on my face whenever he starts fooling around.

The 12th reason...

2009-01-15T15:58:00.000-08:00

"His amazing physical credibility..."

Such as flexibility and yes even that I notice. I think I became motivated on being flexible after seeing this one show where he showed how flexible he was. He's really capable of lots of stuff huh?

BTW, have you guys seen Taegoon's first debut music video? The song is good and he is good but Jaejoong being featured in that video made it lot hotter.

Check it out :

Credits: Aethiopeia + wishfulxme

I'm sorry dear Taegoon, I know I'm suppose to be looking at you and listening to your music but I can't help myself from looking at JJ and listening to him saying CALL ME CALL ME CALL ME.

Guys, I'll be err less active from now on until these 2 horrible weeks pass by. I have to maintain a freaking grade and I fee like dying knowing I could loose everything in one blink of an eye.

Aren't you surprise I wasn't dying because of JJ's hotness but because of a effing grade? GRR

The 13th reason...

2009-01-14T16:16:00.000-08:00

"His adorable baby pictures..."

I've seen lots of Jae's baby pictures and all of them are adorable. Well, all babies are adorable aren't they? I wonder what he was like when he was a baby? Naughty perhaps or maybe a baby that loves blabbering like him! LOL. I have homework so I can't chit chat but maybe later ok?

The 14th reason...

2009-01-13T12:03:00.000-08:00

"His not-so-good scenes..."

It's really interesting and these ngs he made show many scenes of him smiling and laughing like crazy XD. It's really cute and adorable. Hehe, I don't really have nothing to say right now and maybe later. How about that?

The 15th reason...

2009-01-12T07:54:00.000-08:00

"His badminton experience..."

Jaejoong played badminton during his school years and only that sport. I do too and I'm best at that sport. I want to see him play XD Ok, I sound so freaking weird and retarted and its because I'm at school right now. "Supposedly" doing my powerpoint essay which I finished during the break so why not just go to blogspot and spazz right?

So here we go...

Like my new blog? Yep, it's a new year so new blog right? It is now bright and clear and well pictures updated. I'm just pretty sad that I can't keep my Dong Bang Shin Ki banner that I made. I took it off because it makes my blog uhh BIG? But I'll figure a way out and add more DBSK LOVE. If you know Jaejoong's many pictures are not enough. Well definitely not enough, that's why I'm adding some more later. Oh I also want to introduce to you my JaeBear. Look at the top right corner. He's cute isn't he? And he dances with the Mirotic album too.

Update with my super duper video tribute: It's going well, I just need to keep downloading videos of Jae. I think I would be able to finish it by this coming weekend and ready to post it at youtube by the 26th which the day Jae turned 23...well 24 in Korea. And videos? I uploaded like two videos yesterday and it's live performances of Hero. I subbed it. Lol, I don't even know why I did such thing. I just got bored so much and I really like the song Maze so why not pump it up and do something right?

Anyways, also last week I synced in some music into a video because apparently someone is bizznatching about something. Don't even let me start with that, I'm so frustrated. Now what now I have my own so get a life! AND YESTERDAY!!! I saw that Jaejoong is featured in this one music video of Taegoon..taegoon right? And he's holding a gun! LOL, it's pretty hot and I want to see the video? Would there be a kissing scene? Hmm, another war for fangirls isn't it? HAHAHA. Well what else so I got this info from a friend well she's actually right now with me in the same class that KMF or HB or Korean Music Festival was "supposedly" in May 9. (Oh, no! MY AP EXAM) Well only supposedly and DBSK might not go. DUH I already know that. You don't need to add more gas to fire >.< Well there is still hope of them going right? GRR

Today I'll prolly finish subbing the live performance of Jaejoong singing Footsteps and if I found the video of the Crying performance, I should also be done with that XD

And more spazzing? KHYD! Korean Hana Yori Dango is the best. I really like it and it's funny. Adorable Hyunjoong and Kibum...that's his name right? The Minho guy still needs to grow on me. I think I'm starting to like him since the second episode because of the bee phobia. Lol, really reminds me of Hyunjoong which they probably get from him anyways XD And the third episode is either coming out today or tomorrow. Awesome right? Major spazzing gonna happen today XD

Wow I really wrote a lot of crap right? But whatever still good fangirling...

The 16th reason...

2009-01-11T08:30:00.000-08:00

"His love for spicy food..."

He's unique and loving it. At one episode of EHB, he tasted the most spiciest food ever and he wanted to put it in a dish? I laughed so hard when they told him that perhaps he's a devil. Ahh, can't help myself from spazzing.

The 17th reason...

2009-01-10T00:01:00.000-08:00

"His charismatic pictures"

His pictures are FTW!!! I love it and always will. He's so adorable and photogenic!

The 18th reason...

2009-01-09T16:06:00.000-08:00

"His helium addiction..."

I saw him in different shows and even radio broadcast playing with helium. He sounds really hilarious but if you really listen carefully you can distinguish his voice. I find this addiction really adorable. This show that he's really playful and down to earth. XD

The 19th reason...

2009-01-08T16:07:00.000-08:00

"His cute hamtaro pajamas...err Changmin's actually..."

I saw this video of them and he was wearing a hamtaro pajama and that was really unexpected. Jaejoong is really full of surprises and that made me like him more. I found him more adorable in that cosplay costume. And then I found out that Changmin own the pajamas and Jae stole it lol. I found that so cute. Anyways, I wonder what Changmin looks like in hamtaro..hehe would he look cute too like Jaejoong?

The 20th reason...

2009-01-07T16:07:00.000-08:00

"His apologies..."

He keep asking for forgiveness in Xman and all of it was unexpected and was so adorable. Oh Jae, you just need to ask once...wait scratch that...you don't even need to say anything. I have forgiven you already XD. His birthday is slowly approaching!!! He's turning 23 but 24 in Korea. 7 years age gap, hmm. How sad...wish I was born in 86 too D:

The 21st reason...

2009-01-06T16:09:00.000-08:00

"His high notes..."

His voice is what made me fall in love with him and his high notes added to that. I really can't believe a talented guy like him exist. Or maybe he's not human after all but an angel? Lol, then I would love earth then right? Sorry for that fangirling but hey this countdown is all about him!!! That's all for now XD

The 22nd reason...

2009-01-05T16:08:00.000-08:00

"His love for snakes and animals..."

I find it interesting that he could kiss a snake. I actually hate snakes but he made it a little tolerable lol. Well this just show how courageous he is XD

The 23rd reason...

2009-01-04T11:09:00.000-08:00

"His cute three birthday greetings."

I wish I'll be lucky too and someday he'll sing me a greeting too. Yeah right >.< Only in my dreams :0 Lol, but whatever, this is one of the reason, why I really like Jae. He can come up with such random stuff.

Well an update guys, tomorrow is the worst day ever. School is back GAH. And the next break would be in March. Come on! :X

The 24th reason...

2009-01-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

"His bad luck in games."

This made me happy because this show that Hero Jaejoong is not perfect. This meant that we, fangirls, can still swoon over him and not worry about his perfection. If you don't know what I'm talking about, watch Heroine!

BTW, starting from now I'm calling Jaejoong, Bolero. I got addicted to this one clip of him saying Bolero in a very cute way. I can't stop myself from recording my own voice copying him. And there is another reason why Bolero is the nickname, I gave him. It's because in Spanish, Bolero means "he's flying" and Jae is indeed flying, making everyone cry because of his handsomeness! And Bolero in Tagalog means a piece of clothing, you were over your shoulder. I want him to be my Bolero, that protects me from cold. It's like he's hugging me LOL.

The 25th reason...

2009-01-02T11:11:00.000-08:00

"His heartwarming song compositions"

This proved that Jaejoong is not only a dancer and a singer but also a talented composer. His sad songs touches peoples' hearts. Where can you find a talented guy like him?

Don't Cry my Lover
Wasuranaide

The 26th reason...

2009-01-01T00:02:00.001-08:00

"His adorable and sweet messages to his fans."

Jaejoong is very loving and truly cares about his fans. Don't worry Hero, we are here for you too.
Always here standing by your side. Keep fighting and rest please. BTW, Happy Birthday dear Sungminnie XD

The end of 2008

2008-12-31T11:06:00.000-08:00

Get ready for burst of emotions

January, A vague memory, I can't recall anything except RO Day and the first Drill Meet, I attended with friends. RO Day was stressful but I just did all what I can do and I did it. I let it through my mind and shooed it away the second it got in. It was special for some people and it was because it was my first. But oh well, it's not that fun. Long Beach Drill Meet? It was tiring, running back and forth videotaping every single team. It was my first time too so my videotaping was suck-ishhh. Well, way better than other people anyways XD Move on forth!

February, Valentines? Nothing special, I feel like crap celebrating alone but you know what I realize later this year? It doesn't matter. Love is just a way to be happy and there are other ways to earn happiness. You don't need love in an instant. It will come to you nonetheless. Whether you've been good or not. Lol what is this, Santa Claus? XD

March, another vague memory. Spring Break? Went to a bonfire and that's it. It was fun going with friends. The beach was nice and a lil warm but the sand irritates the heck out of me. Because of the fires the previous year, our break was cut off. It was a bummer but thinking about a second week, it's not worth it. It doesn't make a difference anyways. I think this was the month, I started my asian-ess again. Wu Chun and Jun Matsumoto FTW.

April, I DON'T REMEMBER AT ALL! Seriously 0.0 Did this month exist at all? LOL

May, my 15th birthday XD I'm getting old. Also in the 17th, I did not had any idea about HB. If I did I'll prolly went and had a good time. I just hope next year, DBSK comes again. I want to see them so bad D:

June, the month before summer break. Anticipation killed me and what else? The rebel phase? The month Carmel turned upside down. Became an evil witch? Heartless and cruel bizznotch? Not that mean though. That's a lil bit too much.

July, the month I changed for the worst or the better? BOTH. I became colder? I became stronger. I became undefeatable? I don't know. Many things happen at once this month and it was nonetheless, a big in my life. I don't think I regret the things I did this month. It felt good for one thing because I was able to sort all my feelings and manage to speak for myself. But it was harsh for people around me too. They didn't think I would do such a thing. This month is heartbreaking. But I do not regret it. I do not regret things that I accomplish by myself. My surgery was this was month also. My turn of heart maybe happened during my open-heart surgery, hmm? This surgery left me a scar, emotionally and physically. I do not want to go back to the hospital. It scares and annoy the hell out of me. I hate it how they can be annoying and inconsiderate. I don't want to go back because they didn't manage to cure me anyways. What's the point of coming back and having multiple tests on me again? Seriously, WTF!

August, break after break. A month before school starts? This month is the kind I hate so much. Anticipation kills me and wait, wasn't this the month Breaking Dawn was release? I'm wrong or right? Whatever. A book review ... Breaking Dawn was the last bit of what I expected. It was shocking and very unpredictable! A baby for god's sake! What's next? ALIENS. Wait, she did had aliens in the "THE HOST" Not that I didn't like The Host. The Host is freaking awesome. It just that it kind of freaked me out. But eventually, I got over it till the Imprinting of Renessme and Jacob. Incess much?

September, the month all hell broke loose. DBSK FANDOM STARTED. Since that one day I got addicted and all I see is DBSK here, DBSK there. Pathetic huh? But this is my life, why do you freaking care? When I first saw them, the picture of them in Paris. It's like someone turned off the lights and the blond haired boy was holding a glowing stick that pulsates like it's saying LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME. And I did and wow my world turned upside down and since then Jaejoong is the man. Also their fourth album came out and I listened to it everyday since then. If you are not a Cassie yet, try being one because they are amazing. They already have amazing personalities and faces and AMAZING TALENTS FTW. This was the first time, I was introduced to a band that had all members that CAN sing. Singing high notes and everything. Don't believe me? Changmin, Jaejoong and Junsu always have high notes in almost all their song so listen to any. While Micky had a thrilling note in "Bolero" and other songs as well. While Yunho in "You're my melody" is amazing. They dance too and Junsu and Yunho rock it everytime. They also write songs, Jae and Micky's Kiss Shita Mama Sayonara is my favorite.

October, school. school. school. Chemistry sucks and for the first time, math became my favorite subject. Spanish bores me. AP Art rocks my socks lol. It's interesting but multiple homeworks everyday is getting old. And UMM, ROTC? Don't even ask me about it.

November, nothing special at all. SCHOOL AGAIN. And Chemistry, I am indeed failing it. Unbelievable? BELIEVE IT. I hate how the teacher make u feel like a fucking idiot. I rather fail than ask him for help because I have pride you know. I don't want to be treated like I don't know English.

December, RO DAY. STRESSFUL but then it was ok. I couldn't really care about RO anymore. People are just on my nerves. Why don't you try being in my shoes? Getting scolded by everyone because of other people's fault. I'm sick of it. And um, please respect what I do and what I want. If I did what you did to me I doubt you'll like it so please respect. I have my priorities now so don't think I'll be able to do things I have done last year. My priorities goes first not yours. I'm sorry but I changed. And first snow? Things didn't really went that well but whatever, it still my first snow. Let's leave a happy year ok? Even if it is just lies.

For the sake of being happy. Let's end 2008

YEAR OF OX, here I come, home skillz!

December 26, 2003 - December 26, 2008

2008-12-26T19:09:00.000-08:00

Dong Bang Shin Ki
it's been five years and many problems had come to you but your hard work finally paid off. Happy 5th year anniversary. Words are not enough to describe how much your music influenced me and my friends. You and your hard work are one of my inspirations, I'm really thankful that I listen to my friend and paid attention to you guys. I never knew, I'll be this happy and thankful. Don't let anyone bring you guys down because they are just jealous and have nothing to do. All these trials will pass and you all know this would be worth it. Don't forget your fans are always here standing by your side even if it doesn't seem like it. We will love you on and on. Even if I live on the opposite side of the world, sleeping by the time you guys are awake and speaks in a different tongue, please always remember, I'm always here and other hundred thousands of fans as well. Please do not overwork yourselves and be unhealthy. Please always take care of yourselves. It hurts seeing either one of you so tired, so exhausted.
Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Changmin and Yunho, FIGHTING!!!

Junsu: Your voice is the most unique out of the five that is why I memorized your voice in like a second and can tell it apart from others. Your voice is a gift of god. Your smile is genuine and so pure.You look like an angel and indeed one too. You're so adorable, I really thought your the magnae and I love magnaes. Your angel pose makes my day and it's really helpful seeing it after a very tiring day. Take care of yourself and always keep that adorable side in you.

Yoochun: These past few days, your pictures especially the calendar table ones are really adorable. It's so cute and made me laugh every time. Your songs are really just pure talent, so full of feelings and I do listen to your song everyday. I really wish I finished my piano lessons and be as good as you are. You seldom have high notes but whenever you do, like in Bolero, I find it really amazing, I'm serious and not joking here. Take care and keep being hyper. You're so cute.

Jaejoong: My visual shock. You're amazing, your personality is, your face is, your voice is and everything is! Your voice soothes me and made me relax every time I listen to it, which is like everyday XD Your rendition of Forgotten Season is so soothing, so melodramatic, I, surprisingly, shed tears. Your own songs are beautifully written and have so many feelings in it. Due to your drama, you've been so exhausted, you look so sad and this made me really worry. Please take care of yourself and always smile. It pains not seeing you smile. I really am in pain whenever I see you frowning, expressionless and not your usual funny self. Take care please. Please.

Changmin: My sister's love, your vocals are amazing. A god-given gift that you must take care of! Eating is very healthy so keep eating! Do you know that I always get goosebumps whenever I hear your "YEAH" in Spell? It's very thrilling and your smirks in your Mirotic performance are so cute, well very very very manly. Your snarky UFO replies makes my day. You are a very unique person. I love those mismatched eyes and even those mismatched lips.

Yunho: You have the best leadership, I've ever seen. Without you, DBSK wouldn't be this strong, this unite, this organize and this amazing! In "You're my melody" and just like Yoochun, your now and then high notes amazes me also. Your raps and dances are over the top. Words are not enough to describe how alluring you are especially in the Hey! live performance. Thanks for keeping DBSK like this because of your amazing leadership skills. Always FIGHTING!!!

Once again, happy 5th year anniversary. I'm looking forward for five more million anniversaries in the near future :]

A month before Joongie's birthday

2008-12-26T18:59:00.000-08:00

Of course, I wouldn't let Jae's 23rd/24th birthday to pass like that, I'm going to make a tribute video. "26 reasons I love Jaejoong" Please anticipate :D

Also December 27 in Korea, MBC Music Core Special was on and I watched it live! It was lagging but when DBSK was on and it was high quality and all. Lol, even my computer loves DBSK that much XD I was so happy after DBSK won the MVP of the year. Congratulations!!!

Christmas was okay, it get a little crowded at my relative's house but it's all good because they were busy with rockband. Their loud singing kind of get embarrasing >.<>

Starting January 1st, you'll see my countdown :D My 26 reasons.
Tomorrow, BIG BEAR YO!
LOL, first snow. I'll post pictures soon enough :D

The second day after break and five months before my 16th

2008-12-21T18:52:00.000-08:00

Nothing really happened so far, well I don't really expect anything big happening. But anyways, I'm still figuring how to burn the RO day movie because it doesn't work! Now, I'm trying to compress it more and make it smaller. So it's actually the 21st, it means that five months to go and its my birthday! And I really need to take my permit test soon! I should have taken it last month but didn't get the chance to talk to mom yet.

So today the SuJu dorm is released today and Kangin's WGM too. But without subs >.< Please anyone sub it for me! I really want to see more SuJu and Kangin! By the way anyone know where I can watch Band of Brothers Track 3 with subs? Please tell me :D

I finished two movies today and is currently watching S Diary. I finally finished Humming. It was indeed a good movie but seeing the spirit is really overrated. I hate things like that >.< They should have made it more realistic such as making him suffer with the loss or something. This movie didn't brought me to tears but did made me pity the guy. I now agree that sometimes sad endings are good too. But then I'm still touchy-feely with happy endings :D

Another movie I finished is Love So Divine. Seeing Kwon Sang-woo so vulnerable is really new to me 0.0 I'm used to his obnoxious and over the top bad boy roles but I must say I loved this movie. Maybe I am being biased because I'm a sucker for happy endings. Lol, well the plotline is good but it kinda reminds me of this one American movie that prolly used this Kmovie as a remake. Well anyways, this movie is awesome. Watch it. Maybe the only thing I didn't like was the naiveness of the priest lol. He made the kiss a big deal, well he is a priest haha.

More to rant about....I really can't believe it's Christmas already. Like I really don't feel this season, maybe because I'm too focused with other stuff and I really don't enjoy anything fun right now >.< But anyhow guess what? I found a perfect gift for me :D Well beside DBSK albums and calendars, a diffent gift. I would appreciate a BETTA. I want a fish soon! I'm saving up and buy one in January. If you're smart and know me that much you'll know what day I'm going to buy it :D HAHAHA. So immature lol. But yeah I'm planning to buy a red male betta and a hanging wall aquarium. I want to see my still unnamed fish..LOL but somewhat related to Joongies name for sure :D

I'll write more after finishing the S Diary. K?

Five days before christmas

2008-12-19T19:44:00.000-08:00

Finally, the break finally started. It's been so cold this past few days and it's really getting annoying at night. I can't sleep because my teeth are chattering and the blanket seem too short for some reason. Anyways, I'm really glad, school is over. No more RO Day and chemistry.

Speaking of chem, for the first time, I studied for it but guess what? I FAILED IT. I'm pretty much sure chem really hates me. Come on, what did I do wrong? I thought I got it but damn it!

However, I still feel okay because RO day is over. No more thinking, no more improvising. NO MORE. I'm so sore from running everywhere and videotaping. I don't really want to do this anymore. I feel like crap. But I manage to get through it and don't you know how happy I am right now? How good I'm feeling right now? LOL, So now should I talk about more fun stuff and no more boring stuff?

Actually nothing fun to talk about just some few things such as my plans for the winter break such as drama and movie watching, duh. And what else? Advertisements perhaps? MV Parodies, maybe and POSSIBLY PSAs. But I know for sure, I'm going to sleep!

To make things exciting should I talk about what I want for christmas?

Well for my convenience, my own laptop should be helpful. You know why? Because I don't have to borrow this laptop from my mother. So that I can download things I want off of the internet and freely do all my recreational activities such as movie making. What else? WELL. I JUST WANT MY OWN!

Having my own hard drive digital and video camera would be awesome too! Tripod with wheels would be very helpful. I don't have to scrape the ground and embarrass myself. What else? A new phone? I couldn't care less about a phone anyway. I just want it to be able to play mp3! And a new generation of iPOD would be okay too but my ipod video is still useful :D

And for my heart's contentment? OF COURSE!

Meet Jaejoong and get his autograph <3 A picture with him should be nice too. Haha, impossible huh? I know, I know. Just wishing here.

So you know how tough is it to get the things I want for christmas right? So don't even bother to get me some. I know, I sound really greedy and ungrateful but I just don't like receiving gifts anymore especially things that Iwouldn't be able to use. I rather have you save up your money and go to college than give me a gift. Ok?

Ok just up to here for now. Getting really sleepy.

Annyong!

Might a broken lining can be put together back once again?

2008-12-18T17:19:00.000-08:00

So what' s up guys? I don't really have anything that new just a little update and I'll be gone again because in thirty minutes I have to study for an inspection tomorrow. Anyways, have you guys heard of Jaejoong's new composition? Yes, he wrote another one and it is darn beautiful but like his other songs, it was heartbreaking. His past relationships created this kind of songs, I just hope he feels better now and I wished I'm there comforting him, which is like IMPOSSIBLE. I do want to do something for the guy that makes me smile every day D: I feel so hopeless...

Well anyways, listen to it!

Want to have the mp3? Ask me :D

These are the lyrics by the way : It was roughly translated by Whisperpuppies

Don't Forget

I can feel your presence on the path we always walk on
Quietly closing my eyes wishing
that this feeling will never go away

I want to become the wind and envelop you in my arms
I want to fly to the world you're in
I want to see you, I want to see you
I will always wait for you
Because I just can't forget you

The night that I felt you
was already broken
The sweet drifting memories become stronger, Baby
I never want this to end
and hold your hand tighter
I can't leave you

I want to become the wind and envelop you in my arms
and fly to the world you're in
because I want to see you, I want to see you
I'll be waiting for you
I'll be waiting for you

Because I just can't forget you
I'll always be here, I won't forget you

Isn't it beautiful? This is what expected from a wondergul romantic guy. I hope in the future, he'll have better relationships because he deserve more than all these heartbreaks. Hwaiting Jaejoong. Keep fighting!

I now have my priorities, may seem stupid to you but it's not for me

2008-12-16T19:55:00.000-08:00

Don't mind my title, something just happened this past few days that aggravated me. You know some simple thing yet become a big deal kind of stuff. Well, whatever, I'm passed with all the judgement and shit so, I'll just continue being myself, being what I really want to be.

So today is just like any other day that I've experienced, nothing really extravagant and interesting maybe just a little something like my English teacher acted nice out of the blue. It's advance and she let us use our notes for a quiz? That's really something. LOL. Well, I am thankful of her.

Before I went to do my blogging for this week, I was watching Humming, I didn't finish it though because it was lagging but I will definitely will because I really like it. Even though I'm still in the middle knowing the main plot of the story, I realize how true this quote is: "You'll only know how important a person is once they are gone." That quote basically was the point of the movie. I really want to know what would happen to that ungrateful Jeon-so.
Anyways, another movie news !!! New Moon is coming out on November 20, 2009. 12 months after the showing of the first movie. I'm excited and defnitely gonna watch this one too. One more year to go :D See you all EdwardCullen fanatics.

So to lift up my mood, how about fangirling?
So have you guys read about SM Entertainment backing out of the lawsuit? I didn't like the fact that they did but after realizing it, it doesn't really matter. Maybe, I had a bad reaction at first because of I want them to win it and show the Youth organizations that what they are thinking are absolutely wrong. I want to defend DBSK so much that I got pissed at SM Entertainment but an hour later, after reading the legal fees. I guess that it's not worth it at all. They already sold more than a million copies of it anyway all around Asia so why bother?

Heard about the new couple of WGM? Yes, indeed Kangin and Lee Yoon Ji or w.e, correct me if I'm wrong. I'm really excited to see SuJu actions in my favorite variety show although I would miss JoongBo couple just like I did with AnBi couple. Can't wait for their first episode together :D

What else? Boys before flowers trailer. It looks awesome but I don't really get the deal with Dao Ming Zi/Doumyouji/Go Jun Pyo's hairs. I hate it when it look all unique and no offense, not really that good-looking. I don't know..I just don't like it.
And kissing scene of Hyunjoong, get ready for some anti-fans yo!
Haha, oh wells. The first episode will air on January 5th, 2009 and PLEASE someone sub it so I can understand. I really can't wait!

But I can't wait for Jaejoong's solo drama. That's the one, I'm really dying to see.
I really want to see it and try my best not to be judgemental of the girl. Gosh, I need to get over myself really. I'm just really addicted with Jae. Ah, I think I'm going crazy. I need to think more clearly and open my mind. I'm going to like HHJ, I just know.

Well, what else? I want to fangirl more about the Subaru movie. I wanna watch it! I really do and I hope they show it here at my local theatre cinemas. PLEASE!

Guess what guys? 3 effing days before the break! And 2 more days before fucking RO DAY. I don't wanna go because I hate studying. GRR. Well, whatever, I have to suck it up. I'm going to have an awesome break anyways.

I'm planning to buy a DBSK calendar! What do you think should I get the desk or the wall? I want to get the wall because it's bigger but seeing the desk's pictures..I just melted and can't choose. Jaejoong really look cute in the desk calendar but I can't deny the fact that Micky is effing cute in his pictures. OMO. A change of heart?
NOOO HECK NO.

LOL, let's see. But I doubt it. Forever JAE!
And once I ordered a DBSK custom made shirt,
I'll take a picture of it and show it to you guys :D
Until next time fools.

Birthday gift for Xiah Junsu...

2008-12-13T23:29:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to you! Saengil Chukha Hamnida! Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu! Qu ni sheng er kuai le! Maligayang bati! And your infamous Kenyan language:
Hongera!

I hope your having a wonderful time spending your birthday. This is only what I can give you (look down) and of course, my full support. Thanks for being an inspiration and keep smiling! Fighting!

She's flying...

2008-12-13T16:36:00.000-08:00

Currently in love with this song: Bolero by DBSK

If the word "bolero" seems familiar to you, well it's because this word was derived from the Spanish verb "voler" which meant "to fly". If it was literally translated the word would mean she's/he's/it's flying but in this case, well duh, of course it's "she's flying". There is another meaning which is a famous dance but not much information was released. They say that Bolero is a type of dance and well it does match the lyrics too like the Spanish verb voler. I really want them to clear this up. Everyone is getting confused! And it actually match the Japanese lyrics. The message of the song is just...INDESCRIBABLE. I'm in love with the lyrics

Dong Bang Shin Ki's voices in this song were extraordinary. Everyone in the band, I LITERALLY MEANT ALL OF THEM, hit high notes! Even Yoochun and Yunho. Yoochun is 0.0 You don't believe me? Watch the video and fast forward it to 4:19ish and listen carefully!

I'm ashamed because at first, I didn't paid much attention to it because I hate the low quality but when the full version came out, I got addicted. Now, I can't go a day without listening to it even for mere second. Sounds like I'm overreacting huh? But I'm not, promise, cross my heart, all anti fans can die. LOL. Do you get it???

Anyways, don't be surprised one day if I post a fanvid with this song and the movie clips. I think I'm really going to that in the near future.

Well this is the lyrics, got them off of the internet but I fixed the grammar. Sorry if it's not really the literal translation because if it is, it would meant gibberish.

Bolero by DBSK Lyrics:

I dreamt of you dancing on the stage
Over the rising moon and while it's floating deep in the darkness
The deep wounds in your heart...one by one...please forget it, don't bear a scar/grudge
Nobody will blame you, you just have to be yourself, you just have to be true

Play it for me, dance it for me, that fleeting sweet performance of the bolero
Fly up high and you'll finally find a place that will heal all your wounds

Inside the dark room, sad thoughts should flow out of the windows & away from your empty heart
Your dreams were unawarely taken under the rays of the moon
Those sadden dreams are now alone and listening in loneliness
But then because you fly freely, the rhythm grew hope
You found the answer that only you can know

Play it for me, dance it for me, that fleeting sweet performance of the bolero
Fly up high and you'll finally find a place that will heal all your wounds

Let you dance away, don't you know? I'll stay by your side*
Fly away, fly away, fly away, fly to the top, I'm forever*
I'll forever going to continue putting light upon you
By your side, I'll watch you achieve your dreams & have a perfect future
Anytime, anywhere, I'll wish of your safety, I'll continue protecting you

Play it for me, dance it for me, that magnificent, twinkling, passionate,
and sparkling performance of the bolero
You will never be alone so live your life without fear
And continue to fly up till the end

You should stay here

Those lines with asterisk were in English but I'll still explain what it meant. Well, what the correct English meant...

"Dance, continue dancing. Don't fear anything, know that I'll forever stay by your side."

I know that it's not what the literal Japanese mean but if u had read earlier it says the CORRECT GRAMMAR. Peace out!